To go nuts, or not to go nuts. That is the question.

Well...cycle 1 was a bust. CD1 sucked pretty bad, mostly because I drove myself crazy on FF. I actually spent an amount of time I am too embarrassed to admit browsing through other charts that looked similar to mine to see how many of them ended up as pregnancy charts. And I peed on more sticks than I care to admit. But now I'm CD6 of cycle 2 and have already taken 2 doses of 100mg Clomid; 3 more to go. I might just go without temping after I get my CHs, just so I can't drive myself nuts this time. But I also might not be able to resist...

Yesterday I threw a Scentsy party at my house. I had a bunch of yummy snack foods, and a good group of ladies who bought a bunch of stuff! Haha, so that means, I get a lot of free stuff! Awesome! I love this stuff though, it smells so good! But my husband decided that yesterday would be a great day to do yard work, and redo the mulch beds in front and on the side of the house...right by the windows in the living room, where my party was being held. Him and my BIL and step-nephews were working the whole time, making all kinds of noise and trampling dirt and mud in and out of the house when they needed to go to the bathroom or something. Grrrr....I don't think he knows how much time I actually spent cleaning yesterday to make this house presentable. However, the kids that were here all made a pretty good mess too! I just don't mind cleaning up after them as much. :)

Well I had a crazy few days this past weekend!! It started on Thursday for me. I took my sister to a conference she had in Toledo, and drove her car to Berrien Springs, MI to visit my SIL and BIL and my neice and nephew, all with A in tow, of course. It's only about a 3 hour drive or so, so it wasn't terrible. Friday morning, SIL, A and I drove to Michigan City, IN and caught the train to Chicago! SIL had a doctor's appointment, but we got to walk around Michigan Ave. quite a bit before the weather turned aweful! It was only in the high 30's and rainy and WINDY! Yeah, yeah...I know...Windy City. But that's not why it's called that. It's actually from it's politicians being full of hot air, perhaps like some of our current politicians who hail from the Chicago area...but I digress.

In the meantime, while we were on the train to Chicago, my sister went in to be induced with her 3rd child, and 3rd boy! :) He was born while we were on the train back to Michigan City. I left early in the morning for the drive back to Toledo. I got to meet little Bentley who weighed 6 lbs 2 oz, and was 22 (!!) inches long! He's amazing! I will try to add pics later.

On to IF things: I am currently on cd21, 7dpo, and my temps are staying well above the normal for me! I don't recall having any temps above 98 degrees, and yesterday and today were both 98.04. I don't really think it means anything at this point, since I'm only 7dpo, but it's exciting nonetheless.

Familywise, I spent much of last night cleaning eye goop out of A's eyes, and she woke up this morning with her eyes swollen and crusty :( Not Fun. I am waiting for the doctor's office to open up so I can call and get her in. At least she is still in relatively good spirits. She just looks miserable.

Update: New Cycle

Alright! So it's been a while since the last post...since March 18th! wow...So I did make the call to get me some provera, finally got my period going, and we are on day 3 of clomid! YAY!! Hot flashes and mood swings are abundant, but that's ok. I'm optimistic! We are going to get me KTFU this time! Pardon my abbreviated french.

CD47 and counting

Just like in the song "Unchained Melody", time is going by...so slowly. I am to the point that I just want it to be April so I can:
     A. Get some provera to kickstart my period and then start clomid, or
     B. O or get AF so that something is happening again! I think at this point if AF comes, I will give the doctor a call and see if I can just get going on the meds now instead of waiting another 47+ days.

But for now, I'm at a standstill, and it sucks. But I can hardly complain when the weather has been great these last few days, and A and I have been able to go out and play and go for walks! She is so fun this year, walking around like the big girl she is! She loves to swing and go down the slides! It's amazing just to watch her explore. She is getting to be so independent, which is great on one hand, but on the other, it makes me long for the little baby that used to depend on me, and need me for just about everything. I think that's why it warms my heart so much when she stops and grabs for my hand when she needs to take that big step over the barrier to get into the sand!

New Hair, New Hobby (knitting!), and a FFFC

Got a new haircut today. Don't mind my face. I look horrible, and the one little wave on the left looks funny in this pic, but I actually like the cut!! Kind of lifted my funky mood a bit today.

So yesterday, I decided I was going to teach myself how to knit. I bought some needles and yarn and a book....and got nowhere. So I popped online to YouTube. Tada!! I figured out how to cast on in about 30 seconds. Easy as pie. Next I needed to learn how to actually knit. Again to the book. No luck. Back on YouTube. Tada! I know how to knit!! Not perfectly, but I'm getting the hang of it. So when I wanted to learn the purl stitch, I just went right to YouTube. Figured it out pretty quick!! Now I just need to figure out what to do with these stitches. I start with about 25 cast on stitches, and soon I have 50 or so loops on my needle! I'm afraid if I just keep going it won't fit on my needles anymore! I still have to learn what to do with them.

As for TTC this cycle (ha! I almost put 'this month'. As if...) it's not looking pretty. Here I am on cd 40, with no clear signs of ovulation, and no AF. Boo. I am half hoping I make it to cd60 with no AF so I can just pop some provera and get started on the clomid sooner than later. I guess that's my FFFC today.

Well crap!

Temp drop today. That is all.

Finally ovulating!....maybe??

Yesterday was cd30, and after taking opk's for about 20 days and getting a bunch of negatives, I finally got a positive yesterday. I think. Sometimes they are so hard to read. I should have gone out to get a digital, but I figured that I was charting my temps anyway, so it wasn't a big deal. Then I got curious a few hours later. So I took another test, and it was clearly negative. Grrrr...ok. Fine. So I just figured I would test later today (which I probably still will), but I wake up this morning to a .4+ degree temp spike! So I will have to wait a few days to know for sure, but I think maybe I did still ovulate yesterday and maybe I just caught the end of my surge. Must have been a short one :-/. At least we have awesome timing if I did O yesterday!

If this cycle is a bust, I have one more cycle to get through before I can move on. I made an appointment with my OB for April 18th for a consult. I should be able to start the clomid when the cycle after that gets going. End of April maybe??